Reasoning and guilt

I don't know where to start,

I don't know what to say,

I tried to make the hurt I felt

Just melt away.

I made myself so numb,

I couldn't feel a thing

When all I ever wanted

Was to be close to him.

We have been stuck in a cell in the infirmary of the castle Senna and I now for a week. I don't know if they are even going to let me leave with my life. And of course if I die, then Senna dies too. How could I have been so prolifically stupid. What will happen from here? Are we to be burnt for my sins? I cannot write too much as this will most probably be censored and read. But we are in fear of our lives, when all we want to do is leave.

B